The interview went really well. I was more than qualified for the job. The Oncology office called me within a day or two and let me know that I had the job. It was going to be a great . I loved working in doctors' offices. They had even planned to give me extra duties because my former supervisor had given me such a good recommendation. It paid well, and it was HARD to get a job in Humbolodt County. I accepted and told them I couldn't wait to start. A few days later, on my very first day, there was a staff meeting scheduled, and they would be introducing me to the rest of the office. I was to be there at 8:00, sharp!
Well, from the moment I accepted the job until the morning I was to start, my stomach had been in knots. This would be my first time back to work after having my baby, Gavin. How was I going to do it? At about 7:30 (remember I was supposed to be there at 8:00) when the office began taking calls, I anxiously called my new boss. "I'm not going to be there this morning. I can't leave my baby." This is where I traded the shoes, clothes, etc. These words sealed my fate. I was a stay-at-home mom. I didn't WANT to be anything else.
I didn't want to go to work so that we could have material possessions. I wanted to invest in my child. I am so glad that God spoke to my mommy heart that morning and told me I was not a career woman. He asked me to trust Him and trust that He would provide for us. Now, "providing for us" didn't look the way that I would have expected. We did struggle and continue to struggle, but I wouldn't have it any other way. I wouldn't trade staying at home and homeschooling for all of the shoes in the world!


